Welcome!

I don’t like talking about me, if we’re being honest. Call it imposter syndrome or being the child of a narcissist parent – when the attention is on me I often deflect it.

I could give you the social profile stats – that I’m in my 40s, on my second marriage, have kids, and work a demanding job. I might even tell you I published a few books, but then I’m ready to move on to something that is less about me and more about something else.

My mother used to say I have the gift of gab – my sister has mentioned it before that I can walk into a room and talk to anyone, even complete strangers, and make them feel at ease. It’s all because I know how to get people to carry a conversation so I don’t have to open up. Imagine my surprise when I started outlining a book I was going to write and realized it was basically a memoir. The idea of writing a memoir was so laughable to me I quickly tossed the whole idea (and the book outline) aside and I have struggled to find my creative footing since. I’ve done writing prompts, brainstorming sessions, and nada. I seem to lack the inspiration to work on any piece of fiction, yet I can write and outline around a memoir for hours.

I remember being told once that when God calls you to do something, He will make it abundantly clear that it is Him calling you. Fast-forward to October of 2022 when I woke up from a two-week coma after asking God to give me a sign about purpose and here we are. I have searched for authenticity for the majority of my life, and in the days we live in currently where your status is reduced to how many likes and follows you have on social media, I struggle with feeling fake. I call it out regularly and it’s time I start practicing what I preach basically. I’ve done blogs and such where it’s always positive and happy, but that’s not life and bottling the bad instead of openly talking about it has so many long-lasting consequences, it can make you physically ill to a point you may never recover.

Topics here will range from my struggles with growing up in an abusive home and the loss of my mother as a child. It will be a full recap of how bad I let my mental health get and how that ended me up on life support. It will be topics about love and relationships and how even the most idyllic couples have struggles. Then, the cherry on top of it all, faith. Interwoven into every piece of my story is how even on the worst days, when I feel like I barely have a mustard seed-sized faith, that I am continually shown God’s purpose in my life.

Welcome my friends!